Step 1: Slowly Understand What's Going On
Getting ready to move to LA has been a really long-winded and ongoing process that I've been slowly dealing with for almost 2 years now. For a while, I knew that I wanted to go to LA but I could never really "find the right time" -- So I decided to set a date, make a tour out of it, and just commit to the whole process, regardless of what was going on in my personal life. I started a countdown at T-100 days, and it slowly but very surely became a reality overtime. I liked to describe it as a freight train moving at slow-motion and I'm like some sort of damsel strapped to the railroad.
I made a whole bunch of lists on things to do; pack stuff, sell stuff, ship stuff, get rid of stuff, make an attic box, move my fish, play my final shows, etc. etc. But really, and I'm sure that most grown-up people know this, but you're never really fully ready on the first go. To be honest, I left my apartment in Ashland a mess. Sorry mom.
Step 2: Party it out
On Friday the 15th, I had my big going away show @ Midway Cafe in JP, Boston. Here's what happened:
- Big Bad Wolf, Celebrity Look-Alikes & NvN all played super fun sets
- So many of my favorite people on earth came to this show
- I had a full band
- I was dressed as a corgi the whole time.
Step 3: Saying Goodbye
This step is the step that made today probably the hardest day of my life. I've never been good at goodbyes, and today was a real test of that. I think you find that it's really easy to count your losses when you have no idea what's in store for you -- For weeks, all I could think about were all the sacrifices I was about to make; my home, my jobs, my comfort, my friends, my parents, my fish Herb, my dog Maya, and I think the hardest think of all was sacrificing my relationship.
I've never been one to lose my sensibilities over a relationship or anything like that, but it really is an impossibly tough thing to end a nearly 2 year old relationship prematurely. I hope I'm not oversharing, but again, this I think has to be the hardest part of this whole ordeal -- I don't think I've ever cried so hard in my life.
So, that being said -- This road trip is going to be a really long healing journey for me. I am so grateful that I have had the friends I have had, to have the parents I have had, and to have the love & support that I have had. By making these sacrifices, I think I've really solidified how much I really do want this next chapter in my career and in my life through Los Angeles. I expect that in these next few weeks I'll be feeling lots of feelings, and making some serious changes.
Step 4: Say Hi to Grammy
Adam & I arrived in Binghamton, NY at around 7:30 and were fed spiedies. It's good to see Grammy before going off to totally uncharted territories.
Grammy always has the best blankets.